The Day
Here's what to do when boredom start to creep in your veins or rather what to do when you want to shout your heart out with no one to hear it except for a few people who happen to pass by your blog with absolutely no idea as to who you are, what the hell your talkin' about, who's the people involved and what the f***'s goin' on--grab your mobile phone...yes your mobile phone or cell phone, not the usual pen and paper or a computer keyboard but the ever handy and easily available mobile phone which, I know, is always with you. And before ideas vanish in your head, start typing. Just like what I always do eversince I found out that there's a lot to do with cell phone aside from the usual, boring texting or phone call.
So, I already have my cell phone with me and I, in fact, have already written a rather long introduction for this entry. The only thing that's missing is the topic, subject or what I really wanted to write in this entry. And in this case, it's an update of that li'l something something I've written a month ago (enlighten me with this coz Im really not sure if it's "just" a month ago).
Update number 1: After painstakingly reflecting with a mixture of thoroughly fighting and denying the feeling, I came to a conclusion that I can't fight it no more. That wether I like it or not, the feeling just increases its intensity as the days went by that I am now entertaining the fact that I must be in love. But of course I cannot completely allude to the "I'm in love" thing for I've never been in love or maybe I am It's just that I'm not aware that I already am which left me clueless of the real feeling and meaning of being in love.
Update number 2: The letter- Yep! That simple note that Im itching to blog about but decided against it because I'm not sure wether he's written it because he really want to or because my friends at work vexed him thinking that if they did (that if he write a letter) it'll somewhat brighten up my day (which,honestly awaken every bit of feeling that I never imagine I'm capable of.). Which also, garnered a sleepless or rather a sunrise sleep from me coz I keep on thinking the "sincerity" of that letter and wether he's just beginning to be friendly with my work friends which,FYI, his new workmates (maybe he just wanted to get along with them since that's the group of people he'll be mixing with for 3 months). ETA:I still have that letter with me. Keepin' it. For memento's sake and not because of other reason.
Update number 3: And because I kept my mind busy thinkin' wether I've already fallen or not... I never realized that I am already AWOL at WNH. Yup! Because I'm so confused I haven't realized that I am already just lurking at that one place that I am addicted with. And I haven't instantly realized that after posting my first thousand, I find it hard to post again. That because of that guy, I am completely out of words on the topic that was posted. And yes, although I posted on some thread that don't require much thinking of what to post every once in a while, I find it hard to do the usual 20-40 posts per day that I made before this guy came along.
Update number 4: I crave no more for Cookie. All right, that's a lie. See, I just can't throw Cookie away from my mind but there are times that I don't think of him anymore. That is so unlike before wherein even at work, in the middle of experiencing toxicity, Cookie's still on my mind. Every carve and crevices of Cookie's face, the grin, the facial hair, the perfectly sculpted nostrils... every line on his face were engraved on my mind every single time. Now, I think of Cookie no more. And that's how big that guy's impact is. And I just can't imagine that I'm already like this when months before,my world revolved around Cookie only. One proof of me not thinkin' of Cookie is this entry. Why? For cryin' out loud! I should've stopped typing this and start constructing sweet words for Cookie to read but I don't. I spent my time makin' this instead.
Update number 5: Me acting stupid whenever he's around. Yes. And I didn't really intend to. It was like... Oh, I'm ok, this is what I'll do, this is what I'll say but when he's near... that lay forgotten. I remember one time, I just sit there smiled back at him and utter nothing. I don't know. Was I really that stupid?
I don't know how to end this but...oh final words...This is the day.
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